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Who am I?

Who is staring back at me?

A girl who acts tough but isn't.

A girl who act's like she doesn't care but does.

A girl who pretends she isn't hurt when she is.

Staring in the mirror I see someone else

I see a girl who's scared

A girl with doubts

A girl who regrets what she does.

I see a girl who's confused

Who doesn't know what she's doing

Who doesn't want to face reality.

I see a girl who hates herself

Hates herself for lying

Hates herself for giving up

Hates herself for pretending

to be someone she isn't.

She screams at her reflection when she sees it

She screams at herself when she knows people are right

She screams at herself knowing she's trying to be someone else.

Someone who isn't afraid.

Someone who can fight.

Someone who is strong.

She screams at the sky when she realizes

she isn't strong

she can't fight

she IS afraid.

She screams at the sky when she realizes

She's lying to herself

She's scared of her life

She's scared of the truth.

Because the truth is....

She's afraid...

She doubts herself ....

and her choices.

She lies to her friends...

about who she is.

She's weak....

and is hurt easily.

She hates the facade she's created

A facade that is everything.....

but her...
I honestly hate myself sometimes.....I'm a liar....I doubt myself....I give up easily

I'm not strong I talk big game but I'd never actually fight.

I do truly care what you think and say about me.

I hate that I can't just be open with who I am.

When Im at home I am me....My family and close friends only know the real me.

People at school only know the girl who can't control her temper and isn't afraid of anyone.

A girl who doesn't care. Well let me tell you all the true me. I feel you guys deserve that much for being kind and watching what I all have heard and read my work. You understand who I am.

I am a scared child who was scarred early in her live along with her older brother. 
I have been bullied to the point my heart broke I gave up on friends and people
I have been treated like a freak since Elementary school.

I hate how I don't take care of myself or how I want to dress up in nice clothes with my hair done but I don't think I look good in any of it.

I am a girl with doubts in her life....who misses and cares about the people she hates. I am not cold hearted like people take me for and I am not truly a dominant person like people say I am in my relationship. I am the opposite I cannot lead. I am too scared to be a leader so I simply follow. 

I hate the lies I have created around understand why I do what I do.

It's not that I like it....It's that Im scared
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AnBlonde Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I can relate...
As can many other people who are too scared to admit...
Truly beautiful.
Angelofdarkness555 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you
zoedow1120 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014
Hugs, bro.
Angelofdarkness555 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
xXScar01 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
<3 Story of my life its beautiful
Angelofdarkness555 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, im glad you like it.
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